Friday, December 30, 2011

Day 3

The MET and Madison avenue. Central park. Churros and hot dogs for lunch.
Then afterwards Chinatown and little Italy. Stopped for fresh taro bubble tea. Almost lost my shit but thankfully the Asian lady was kind enough to keep it safely until I retrieved it.
Long day of again more walking. My feet hate me for it. And I will defintely have to see my chiropractor upon my return. Sore everywhere.

Thursday, December 29, 2011

New York city

Day 2 in the big apple:
Times square and fifth ave.
Lots of shopping due to lots of good deals.
Rockerfeller centre, the trump tower and the big tree like in Home Alone 2 where Kevin was.
Back to the hostel to relax and watch the free comedy show at 9 o'clock. Met a Canadian and a bunch of australians. The show was great. The comics were funny.

By the end of the night, my body and mind were tired. I still missed my bed. A lot.

Friday, December 23, 2011

i got the moves like jagger

Bier Market on The Esplanade for VAT'S AFTER VERK?
Although I'm not keen on drinking beer, I had the Früli and it was delicious.

Live music, dancing, beer (more beer and even more beer), chugging, half-drunken chit chats and nonsense, stupid boys, hating on downtown drivers ("YOU SUCK! BULLSHIT!"), getting hit on by definitely drunk boys while looking the most ridiculous in a head scarf and the other in a duvet jacket, laughs all around ("It's okay! I know Jiu Jitsu!"). It's always a good time, sober or not.

Thursday, December 22, 2011

All smiles

High school girl crush on you.
C'est terrible. I can't help it.

:)

Friday, December 16, 2011

CHEESY, IN ALL HONESTY

I am extremely thankful to have found friends in each and every one of you. I was sceptical that I wouldn't encounter genuine people, ever again. I was afraid to give anyone a chance. But I am so glad to have this job, to have met you all and above all, to have you in my life.

Life is just funny sometimes. Before May, I was not my happiest. Now I'm pretty complacent with my life.

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

AT LAST

I am a free bird!!!!!!!!!

Also, I'm kind of obsessed with Andrew Allen's "I Wanna be your Christmas". How freaking adorable is that song?!

Saturday, December 10, 2011

I don't care

I'm posting updates on my progress to freedom!!!!!

15h03 - le long article est fini!!!!!


[x] examen
[x] long article
[ ] dissertation
[ ] exam
I woke up from a dream this morning feeling furious.
I was aware that I was only dreaming but the unfortunate events of the dream infuriated me.
I think I was even crying for being upset, frustrated, irritated.

Thursday, December 8, 2011

French guy down the hall with the neck tattoo, dark messy wavy you-just-want-to-put-your-fingers-through hair, blazer-oxford shirt-fitted pants wearing, elegant smoker, the accent that makes you melt and brings you down to your knees.

As if that run-on sentence does not illustrate la beauté de cet homme.

I'm done.

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

After high school, we kind of disappeared from each other's lives.
Tell me why I was anticipating for that to happen? I somehow knew it would.
So, if we were to accidentally cross paths one day, what would we say to one another? Would there even be anything to say?

~
Old friends, by old I mean former, tend to be extremely immature when I'm in the same room or hallway or whatever as them.
So what we had our differences? It doesn't mean that we have to be uncivilized. It also does not necessarily mean that I despise you with a passion. Because quite frankly, I don't. You just don't matter to me anymore. Also, way to make things unbelievably and purposely uncomfortable.
Your death stares don't phase me, girl please.

OVERBOARD

I am an assignment, a photography portfolio, a dissertation, a long article, two exams away from (temporary) freedom.
My computer class is driving me kind of nuts. I am praying to magically find a solution to that positioning conundrum with CSS with my logic because it's a logic course. WHY.
I have already planned out the dissertation. So all I really have to do is put the pieces together accordingly, include the footnotes and the bibliography. I'm done the introduction though.
I wrote the introduction to the long article... which by the way, has to be approximately 1700 words. I'm actually excited to write that piece, for some known and unknown reasons.
I can't wait to finish that CSS exam. Let's not exclude EXCEL altogether, shall we please? I hate it with a passion. Can I also pass it with a 100? I did receive 99% on the midterm. Can we excel in this one as well? (See what I did there... SYLLEPSE!! I did learn shizz this semester in my figures de style class. Haha.)
My French intro to literature exam is tomorrow. I'm well prepared. I am quite content with my marks so far. Ain't nothing to worry 'bout.
Aside from school, I have to go to Keele one of these days to attend that exchange information session.
I have to go Christmas shopping which I suppose should contribute to my workout. (I need to get back into working out.)

I am impatiently waiting:
to finally relax, which involves drinking hot chocolate and watching Christmas movies and/or W Movies.
go out with friends. Delicious sangria and chitchats please?
for Christmas Eve and Christmas day!
for New York City with my all around lovely fellow fashion enthusiast.

Sunday, November 13, 2011

in my place

A rather successful shopping weekend. I spent my Saturday roaming Queen Street West endlessly only to find myself frustrated by the fact that I couldn't find a pair of decent leather boots - ones that were up to my expectations. Finally, we ended up at our last stop: Softmoc shoes. I usually don't shop there for boots. The only pair of shoes I have bought at that company were my Sorel boots. But I found the Orinocco Dip stone Clarks boots on sale. I've been eyeing them for quite some time. They're the perfect combination of a biker and western boot. I also found the SoftMoc Desert boots on sale for $ 44.99. They are extremely similar to the Clarks. I was tempted to buy them right and then and there. But instead, I bought them today! And I got them for a whopping $15 (tax included)!!!! I am so freaking happy!
Isn't it sad how materialistic I can be? I can't help but rejoice in my treasure finds! And savings, might I add.

So this officially means no shopping until NYC. Well, no shopping for myself. Only for others.

Saturday, November 5, 2011

couples o' things

- This semester is by far the best: 2 core French courses and 2 electives (computer class and photography)
- I only had 1 midterm... open book for my computer class. What did I tell ya? THE BEST!!!
- NYC in a couple of weeks!
- Newly purchased: Camel blazer with suede elbow detailing and brown ankle riding boots.
- I love how almost nobody pays attention to Sears but yet there are so many beautiful clothes... for cheap!
- Also, I noticed that I cannot speak English anymore to save my life. I don't know if I should be worried or I should laugh... I'm stupid. Last time, I used a French term in English. It didn't make any freaking sense!! The poor student I was helping was probably extremely confused..

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Conclusions:

1. I am terrible at bowling. It is beyond embarrassing. I got 1 spare in 3 rounds. Well at least I got one.
2. Even throwing the ball with my left hand (the one I use the most) does not help.
3. It's humiliating to be playing when you are surrounded by professional old people in the bowling alley. They're so good!!!
4. Bowling is fun only with good company.

Monday, October 10, 2011

Thanksgiving Monday

I spent the day finishing my "Analyse courte no.1" all whilst listening to Coldplay and Colbie Caillat records on repeat.
I realize that I am listening to too much Colbie. Who doesn't love a good ukelele, pop, feel-good tune about falling in love and boys and past/current relationships and shit?
Some people like Taylor Swift. And others prefer Colbie (which would be me, by the way).

Besides "Bubbly", I quite like: "All of You, "You Got Me", "What If" (so fitting right now...), "I Won't", "The Little Things", "Droplets", amongst various others...
This is embarrassing.

While people will bask in a week free of classes and commuting to and from the campus, I will be working on campus. I can't complain though... $$$
I want sky-high all-black leather booties.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

I want to do something for me. Not for someone else. Just this once, I want to do it for me.
Not to please my parents, my bosses, students at work or fucking society.
Just me.

You know?

Saturday, September 24, 2011

Happy Birthday! :)

Good food and good company.
What more could you ask for?
Sweet potato fries and sangrias and chitchats.

We should have done this ages ago. Well, months ago to be exact. But whatever. We shall do it more often.

Friday, September 23, 2011

I've always wanted to travel. Given the opportunity and the means (now that I work), I promised myself that I would visit places.
And I will do just that.

New York City for New Year's!
And Mauritius next summer.

I am beyond excited.
Damages will definitely made during our NYC trip. Girls and shopping and NYC? Disaster. My wallet will hate me.

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

What I should not be doing

Listening to Colbie Caillat records.

Definitely not to "What if".
Definitely not.

Monday, September 5, 2011

- My vision board is overflowing with pictures and goals. I'm excited.
- I am sad to see summer temperatures fleeting but I'm also glad for fall: cable knit sweater and maxi and boots combination weather!
- Tomorrow will be my last day of work as a full-timer. I'll miss lunch chit-chats and walks around campus. As a matter of fact, I won't even have a full hour lunch break tomorrow. I'll be by myself. Eating.
- I want too many things: desert boots in tan, a tan satchel (for school), skirts, more sweaters (especially a waffle knit) and long sleeve shirts. YET I should be saving up for NYC. I don't know how that's going to work out... considering that J is coming down in a week or two strictly for shopping purposes.

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

THOUGHT CLOUD

- Classes start in a week. I'm actually quite excited to be in school again. But I'll miss going to work everyday. I'm weird, I know.
I love my job! (No sarcasm intended in this honest statement.)
- I'm not looking forward to Monday evening class though.
- It's ridiculous how I wish you'd speak more! To me.
- Sometimes, I hate thinking like a woman: overanalyzing shit 99.99% of the time. It's exhausting and frustrating.






Wednesday, August 24, 2011

to do:

[x] Save up for NYC (countdown: 4 months);
[x] Buy a pair of boots for autumn (desert booties in tan/camel);
- Buy more office casual clothes;
[x] Buy tights;
[x] Buy thick socks for autumn;
- Finish knitting that scarf;
- Take the G1 test (at last...), but save up for that in the meantime;
[x] Pay tuition;
- Sell my philo books;
[x] Look at the textbook list;
[x] Locker rental;
[x] Buy a pouch for my Macbook.

Monday, August 15, 2011

Consistency > Convenience
Quality > Quantity

I am so over accepting people's bullshit.
I've had my fair share of dealing with ignoramuses accusing me being someone or something that I am not.


~

I remember all too well
Just how it feels to be all alone
To feel like you'd give anything
For just a little place you can call your own.

- "Let it be me" by Ray LaMontagne

This song was fitting, just a year ago.

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Good weekend

It was great to get away from the city for a weekend.
Also, solid tank maxi dresses and boat shoes are a great combination. I don't care what any of y'all say.

Friday, August 12, 2011

HOPE(FUL)

There must be a God.
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Chin up

But I'm exhausted and worried amongst many things.

Just a laugh though, changes absolutely everything.
A laugh = a greater and better feeling

I'm going to take a walk around the neighbourhood. Three days in a row.
It helps with things.
Thinking.

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Laughing for multiple (sometimes irrational) reasons.
I wish other people had the same sense of humour as us. There would be a lot of happier people. Just saying.

for once,

I don't want to be the one chasing. I'd like someone to chase me. I'm tired of chasing.
It's a testament that you're worth it. In a way. Because if you're being chased, it means that the person thinks you're worth it, right?
I'm exhausted.

Monday, August 8, 2011

122811-010212

I am beyond excited.

Friday, August 5, 2011

I'm exhausted. I'm fed up. I'm tired of being tired of your shit.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

All giddy and shit.

+ I honestly want to get to know you. I want to hear your story. There's just so much we could say and share.

Monday, August 1, 2011

CHEAP

Today was a pretty thrifty and successful day:
- $6 movies ticket for Crazy Stupid Love (which was really funny!)
- $4 mini burger & fries meal
- Free Vanilla Bean frappucino and lemon poppy seeds cake samples from Starbucks
- $5 camel maxi skirt from H&M
- One free subway ride courtesy of Lesley

Sunday, July 31, 2011

WHAT/WHY/HOW

What is your current obsession? Piling on jewelry on my wrists and my fingers, oversize watches, wavy hair, sitting out in the sun to naturally lighten my (desperately in need of a trim) mane, Feather clip-in extensions and Bon Iver
What is your weirdest obsession? Reading Justjaredjr and OceanUp.
What are you wearing today? Everything JOE Fresh... Black tank top maxi dress, Navy blue crochet top, Beige peep toe sandals.
Why is today special? I'm going to Ribfest for the very first time! Mmm ribs.
What would you like to learn to do? Sew and crochet and make music and skateboard and ice skate.
What’s for dinner today? Ribs.
What’s the last thing you bought? Aside from food, I bought Sperry Top-sider shoes in Navy blue.
What is your most challenging goal right now? I guess striking conversation with this boy... Hahah. Oh geez, how lame is my life. That's the most challenging goal as of late.
Where would you like to be? Montreal, Prince Edward Island, Italy, France (South of France especially), Spain, Mauritius.
What would you like to have in your hands right now? A pair of Jeffrey Campbell wedges.
What would you like to get rid of? Anything that is negative.
What are you gonna buy this week? Well, food for sure. And a movie ticket.
If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be? Somewhere in Provence, France.
What's in your bag? Cellphone, iPod, lip stick & lip stain, wallet, tokens for bus fare.
What's your favorite colour? Seafoam/pink, Coral, Ivory.
What is your dream job? I wouldn't mind working on my campus after graduation. Free tuition sounds pretty tempting. Especially if I'm planning to have kids. And the campus itself is so freaking beautiful.
What are your plans for this summer? Work, Overnight trip to Niagara Falls and most likely somewhere for Labour day weekend. I'm not certain where we're going exactly... or if we're going.
If you could be a celebrity for one year, who would it be? I'm going to sound like such a fan girl. But... I'd love to be Miley or Demi for a year. Hahah
How do you picture yourself in ten years? At 29, I'd like to be already married and have a career. And hopefully a child.
Favourite item of clothing in your closet? My maxi dresses. Love.

Saturday, July 30, 2011

I thought I was the only one who hated high school. Well at least I thought that I wouldn't meet anyone else who felt the same way.
It turns out I'm not that crazy.

Friday, July 29, 2011

~

Sometimes you just know that certain things are meant to happen at a specific moment in time.

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Today was indeed the day.

~
Also, have you ever laughed as you are drinking water? And all of the sudden, the water that was once in your mouth splashes out and lands directly onto your pants? Then, you begin to cough hysterically as you try to catch a breath for the sake of living? Did I mention, this happens all while you are working? Well, that's never happened to me until today. I blame my easy sense of humour and my lack of "laughter" control. That was a good and bad time. If that makes sense.

Let's hope this never happens again.

But it was freaking hilarious.

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Feel-good music after a nice swim.
Now playing: Up Up Up - Givers

~
No risk, no reward. And so, tomorrow will be the day.

Sunday, July 24, 2011

HOLOCENE



This performance makes me happy.
I'm happy that Justin's not only getting the recognition that he deserves. But it's the fact that he's using all of that hard earned money towards more musicians for an amazing live performance.

His music is great. Especially for meditating, thinking and sleeping. I have my mother and my 14-year-old sister listening to Bon Iver, Bon Iver. Well, they have no choice since that's all I've been listening to since I got my hands on the record. Everyone should listen to his old stuff as well, before he was Bon Iver.

He's an all around beautiful man.

love is a sturdy tree

1. I will. I have to. I will.
2. Sperry Top-sider shoes in navy! The fact that they are work appropriate makes me love them even more... Good purchase. :)
3. Sunday post-dinner tunes: all three of Deyarmond Edison records on blast

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

- I mustered all the courage that I had in me. And the universe simply did not cooperate today. Tomorrow... Again.
- "I had a dream that I was eating a giant marshmallow. I woke up and my pillow was gone." Hahaha.
- The violent tree that was out to get us! "Take that you tree!" Hahaha.
- "Don't you dare flick that thing on meee!!"
- Flying beetles and giant ants make for great friends at lunch time.
- "Don't be a pussy! Grow some lady balls!" Hahaha.
- Obsessed with the new Bon Iver record. It's on repeat day and night. You are a genius, Justin Vernon. You and your talented team! Amazing.
- Angry mothers on the phone are the most entertaining... really? Your son/daughter is a university student and they still can't do anything on their own? And don't you be taking your rage out on me. I didn't do anything!!!

Monday, July 18, 2011

Besides walking on random outings, I've decided to get back into "exercising". So, I took a nice swim in our pool today after work. The water was so nice and warm!

And why am I scared of people? More specifically of you. Well not scared of you per say, but just hesitant to talk to you.
Although this morning would have been the perfect opportunity to talk to you, we just had to be conveniently wearing headphones. WHY.
Tomorrow.

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Sunday night tunes and thoughts

I was watching The Invention of Lying today which made me believe even more that there is a God; that there must be a God. I don't think that the concept of God was just fabricated by humans. Where would one even come up with such an idea? It's too surreal for the mind.

Also, it is just as absurd or if not more, to believe in le hasard (randomness).

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Spent the day at Woodbine beach with the cousins: laugh attacks, people watching and hot tanned muscular surfer guys watching, men's washrooms, (bad, awful) poutine from Smoke's Poutinerie (sorry, nothing beats Harry's!), encounter with douchebags.
My face apparently has a "sun kissed glow".. However, even with my legs exposed to the sun, they didn't tan! Those stubborn little bitches. I just wasn't meant to tan. So sad.

Friday, July 15, 2011

Three and a half days off from work did me some good. I went to Ottawa to visit my long time dearest friend, Julie. We explored downtown Ottawa (I was clearly the tourist and she was my private tour guide, literally as she is well informed specifically for work purposes), went on a free boat tour and spent a day at Calypso water park where I repeatedly tortured my poor heart. Needless to say, it was a great time! I miss her already. But hopefully our plans to go to New York City this upcoming Winter break will manifest itself!!!

I did do some shopping while I was there: maxi beige and grey striped skirt from Urban Behaviour $9.99, Zara white tee $9.99, Dream Catcher keychain $5, JOE Crochet top $19.99.

It's funny how all these stores are also found in Toronto... But whatever! :) I work hard for my money.

In the end, I got sun burned. I went on some scary ass water rides and I managed to put a brave face on. And I was without my eyes.... God knows I cannot see without my spectacles!

Saturday, July 9, 2011

DARLING, BE HUMAN

Disappointed and upset and angry yet again.

But, what else is new?

NOTE TO SELF: Don't allow yourself to get your hopes up or remotely excited 'cause you'll end up disappointed.

Friday, July 8, 2011

This week has been a good week: got paid three times ($$$), received my e-bay package and my Bon Iver package!!!!!!!!

Friday, July 1, 2011

Woke up at 4am this morning because I was thirsty. Of course, I couldn't fall back asleep. And luckily for me, Sixteen Candles was on.

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Sometimes I wonder.

Why not the fuck me?

But then again... who fucking knows.
Old people are mean. Especially that old lady on the bus today who pointed and laugh at me. So. Mean. And yet so funny. I didn't know whether to feel offended or just laugh along with her...

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

I know the new Bon Iver record came out a couples of days ago... I refuse to hear any of their new songs before I get my hands on my package!

It's tempting... But I shall resist the temptation to listen....

Monday, June 27, 2011

Today was a great day.
Despite me having to take the bus home. But that was okay because I caught the 95 right on schedule and I was able to sit and the bus wasn't crowded at all.
It was a great day.

~
You're all kinds of wonderful.

Sunday, June 26, 2011

I...

I Am me: philosophaster, life and fashion enthusiast, lover of live and laughter, Tatiana.

I Want my paycheque(s)! Sunny days, clear blue skies and watermelon eating kind of weather. A Jeffrey Campbell footwear collection, an Alexander Wang bag collection, a Pamela Love jewelry collection, an H&M and Zara infested wardrobe.

I Have lost over 10 lbs, 3 inches off the waistline.

I Wish for love.

I Hate pesky ignorant people.

I Fear for a lot of things that I should not need to worry about.

I Hear the grownups conversing in the backyard.

I Search for love and happiness and satisfaction and peace within myself.

I Wonder if you, by any chance, remember my name and my face.

I Regret nothing.

I Love the summer time.

I Always daydream.

I Usually drown myself in music while on the way to work.

I Am Not shy (contrary to popular belief).

I Dance to Phoenix.

I Sing to Bon Iver.

I Rarely sleep late or sleep in.

I Cry during cheesy romantic chick flicks (sometimes).

I Am Not Always quiet. On the contrary, I am loud and obnoxious and silly at home.

I Lose touch with reality sometimes.

I'm Confused about your motives.

I Need not to worry.

I Should talk to you.

I Dream about nothing and everything.

Note to self, her, him and you.

I must. I should. I will.

~
She must. She should. She will.

~
He must. He should. He will.

~
You will. Need not to worry.

Saturday, June 25, 2011

life/truth/always

You and me
and never us;
a complicated series of almost interactions.

Thursday, June 23, 2011

countdown for the big sun

- Lunch chitchats are the best.
- I love my job. Truly, honestly. I mean, why not? I get to sit down. I have weekends off. And I love my coworkers!! :)
- Ottawa to visit J in two weeks. I'm kind of excited to get out of T.O. just for a little while.
- Why must the Postal Strike be NOW?! I've ordered a bunch of shit online two weeks ago :(
- And my pre-ordered Bon Iver, Bon Iver was JUST shipped. Whyyyy NOOOOW!
- I need to muster all the courage that I have to talk to you. Actually, I've got the courage. I just don't know what the hell to say. If we've talked over the phone before, wouldn't it be easy to talk in person?? Haha. Also, I understand that this sounds utterly pathetic. I don't talk to "Sexy local singles" over the phone... It's an entirely different context. I promise.
- Why do I feel like I'm the one who always remembers faces and names and nobody remembers me.
- Phoenix all day erday.
- Sebastian Pigott is a babe.
- I hope they make a direct deposit this time. Or else Keele is accurately and definitely UNRELIABLE. I gave you my bank info a month ago... like really? You can't input that shit in the computer???
- Favourite quotes from work
* "He was a cute russian boy! Except for the weird thing around his mouth... *Makes disgusted face* From afar he was cute... Until he came closer... Was that a cold sore?"
* "It's from the 50 cent store!"
* "It's like the Post office downstairs is on strike too!" *said after getting the mail downstairs and returns with a pile of inter-campus mail.*
Hahaha. I love my job.

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Reoccurring pattern. And all the shit I allowed myself to tolerate, to accept.

But not anymore.

Friday, June 10, 2011

:)

- $$$
- Eating lunch outside practically everyday results in me having a watch tan line.... and yet still have pale blinding legs.
- Why is it so hard to dress for work? Casual office attire shouldn't be this difficult.
- Remember Offred in the Republic of Gilead with the Commander and Moira and the Marthas? Hahaha. Grade 11 English flashback.
- I can't stress this enough or maybe I just need to remind myself constantly: I am happy. Happy. That's all that matters. Suck on that bitches.
- That awkward moment when you help a former friend over the phone at work and still manage to be nice to them although they were an ignorant mother fucker to you a year ago. Well then again, I wouldn't be any different in person. I guess I should get used to it 'cause you'll be seeing plenty of me and I'll unfortunately will see the both of you.

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Things are looking up.

Saturday, June 4, 2011

POWER CORRUPTS

Managing to turn your uneccessary remarks into pure sheer entertainment.

On another note: work yesterday was hilarious. A student on the phone had some Indian music blasting and I found it to be extremely funny. I couldn't stop laughing.... so the best thing to do was to make my coworker take the appointment for her. SERIOUSLY. It was so loud.

And students with stupid questions... Unbelievable.
"I DON'T KNOW HOW TO USE ACCENTS ON MY MAC." UH. It's called GOOGLE.

Anyway, so I finally made my purchases on eBay. So excited!! :)

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Some people have serious trust issues. Or some people just like to feel in command, to be reminded that they are powerful. Some people create unnecessary complications for themselves. Some people think that others SHOULD know what they want and expect. Some people forget that we're human and humans have the right to make mistakes. Some people should take a long vacation. Some people should learn to not judge others' actions just so they could find errors in their doings and then humiliate them 'cause that shit feels damn good. Some people... some people... some freaking people.

SOME PEOPLE.

This was an ode written by me, to some people.
The end.

Saturday, May 28, 2011

I'm happy.

That's all that matters.

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Happy Birthday

to me.

Here's to 19 years of living. And many more to come.

Real eyes realize real lies

Last year, around this time, things were complicated.

But now, I can honestly say that I am happy. I've maintained a healthy lifestyle in terms of the type of people with whom I choose to associate myself.

I understand that starting literally from scratch isn't easy. I am learning that everyday.
Though I didn't think there was any hope left, I can see now that it's actually possible. And that genuinely good people exist. The ones with whom you can have the best conversations about anything and everything.

Let me just say this yet again (and I'm sure I'll repeat it one day), childhood friendships are the best friendships there is.
I'm thankful for the people I've met throughout my entire life.
I'm thankful for the people who I have met recently. Thank you.
Most of all, I'm thankful for my family. They are ultimately the only people you can rely on besides yourself.

I'm at a good-enough place. I'm working the entire summer. I love my co-workers and my job. I look forward to the next day and the day after that. It's great.

The healing will definitely take time but my heart is ready for whatever there is to come :)

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

I just ordered the Bon Iver, Bon Iver CD Deluxe Bundle!!!

HELL YEAH!!!!

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

The embarrassing moment of the day award goes to....

Me.

So a student called our office today and she spoke unbelievably quick that I thought she was speaking in Spanish. It made sense since my co-worker is Spanish and sometimes we get calls in Spanish. And she answers them.

To my embarrassment, the woman claimed that she was speaking in "French". That was humiliating and offensive for her.

Student: sjakhdsakjhawue letter of petition weinauiehwauiess!
Me: I'm sorry, I don't speak Spanish. My co-worker's currently busy. If you could call back in a few minutes that would be great.
Student: What are you talking about? I was speaking in French. I don't even know any word in Spanish.


HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

Sunday, May 22, 2011

I have found a sudden love for gardening. So I may just become the wife who spends countless summer weekends in the yard and perusing through the Home Depot garden centre.

I can't wait!! Haha

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

John Krasinski is a babe.

Friday, May 13, 2011

And

I just completed my first week of work. Unfortunately, (apparently), I'm receiving my pay in three weeks because of the date I started working, etc. BUT! on the bright side, it'll be a pretty big pay cheque :D

List of things to do/to buy:
- J. Campbell wedges or clogs
- More office attire: pants and blouses
- Apply for the Certificate programs
- Review my school work to submit for the Certificate program
- Bike ride more [except this will have to wait since it's going to rain for the next couple of days...]

Thursday, May 5, 2011

At last

Today was the cherry on top of the cake. I am satisfied and full.

:)

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

UNBELIEVABLE

Just a thought: notice how Harper resembles a rat and everyone knows that rats are greedy. Hence, Harper's government has been wasting so much money!
We're stuck with Greedy Harper for another four years. Unfortunately.

The fact that Conservatives are the majority is disconcerting to me.

Monday, May 2, 2011

?

I don't understand why practically everyone is rejoicing over someone's death. Not to mention, a murder.

It appears to be a "relief" for a lot of people. But who's to say this hasn't triggered vengeance in others? His operation can definitely operate without his presence.

This still doesn't excuse the fact that many innocent lives have been lost in the past years.
Were the lives of these people worth losing for the destruction of ONE man?

By the way, the troops are not coming home (yet). The war is not over.
The question remains: will this solve anything?

As far as I'm concerned, violence is not the answer.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

I need a little bit of faith, a little bit of hope and a little bit of everything.
I'm emotionally exhausted and spiritually drained.
Beyond.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

I am older, I am bolder.

Thursday, April 21, 2011

I wish...

- that I was accepted in the program I seriously died, in order to get in. (4 hours of my life gone...)
- that work would call already and let me know about my schedule.
- that school didn't finish so early. I miss doing SOMETHING with my life.
- that I was in Mauritius. Basking in the sun, in the warm, in family bonding, in dirty sidewalks, in polluted air, in people infested streets, in the bazaar, in the flea markets, in delicious food by the street, in buying from street vendors, in my grandpa's snack bar, in the Indian Ocean, in the sand, in simplicity.
I want to go back and visit. If I had the money, I would have definitely gone with my dad.
- that Bon Iver would come to Toronto for a show very soon so I could go with my sister and we could BASK in his beautiful music together.
- that last summer would come back to me.

In other random news, I watched Oprah yesterday. Love.
My hair has gotten lighter. Probably the citrus shampoo I've been using. Lemons make hair lighter, did'ya know?!
I bought a Spring men's jacket from UO for a whopping $9.99. It was $100. Ja right.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

This fucking blows.

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Temps printanier

I am enjoying the lovely warmer weather. That's probably one of the minor things I miss about living on a tropical island.

Today:
- I had my 45-min total body burn cardio workout! I love a good sweaty workout;
- I cooked some couscous to compliment leftover dinner for lunch;
- After lunch, my dad and I set up the gazebo;
- NOW: Tea and croissant.

Saturday, April 9, 2011

Late Saturday Night Tunes



Bon Iver's "For Emma Forever Ago" record on repeat.
Today I:
- took a walk with my mom in the ravine
- ran some errands with my mom
- saw someone I didn't want to see
- basked in the beautiful Spring weather in my backyard (which consequently led me to having too much sun exposure) so I took a 3-hour nap
- studied for my psych exam

Friday, April 8, 2011

Quality over quantity.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

It's more than a dream

Listening to what: Deyarmond Edison
Doing what: My last "first year" assignment. I'm actually, genuinely, enjoying writing this philo devoir. 4/8 pages, let's finish the remaining four pages!
Planning to do what later: Take a walk around the neighbourhood, start studying for my psych exam for Monday, fixing myself a plate for lunch, go through my course notes so I can get rid of them.

Edit 14:36pm
Doing what: Finishing up my philo paper, drinking my iced vanilla latte (delicious).

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

This time, last year

I'm not supposed to be here
No, I quite simply lost the time
And all these people gathered round me
No, they are no friends of mine.

Monday, April 4, 2011

CURRENTLY LOVING

1.
Being Erica - My sister and I have been obsessed with it ever since we started season 1 on Netflix. I don't know how I lived without it!! I love how it's all based in Toronto and they do it without shame too. I cannot wait for the fourth season. And Erin Karpluk is beautiful and amazing. Shiri Appleby and her are also practically voice twins. I miss LUX :(

2.
Geek eyewear glasses - I finally got them last friday. It was strange to get used to them at first. But I love it! And since they are transitions, they're the perfect "sunglasses".

Friday, April 1, 2011

News

1. HIRED! - Hell yes!
The perks of having an easy-going unorthodox employer who's interviewing you!
Training starts on April 12. It might be a minimum wage job but it's better than nothing.
2. Being Erica - I am practically in love with this show. Whoever came up with this concept is a genius. Erin Karpluk is amazing! Sebastian Pigott's voice is beautiful. It's kind of a less raspy Ray LaMontagne but still hauntingly beautiful. I've watched seasons 1 and 2. I can't wait to start the third one! Yay for Netflix.

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

PUTAIN DE MERDE!!!

Four hours later, I am done the entrance exam for my program. MY EYES ARE BURNING!!!!! Too long... staring at a computer screen......

For the record, I am incapable of responding rapidly to any comprehension questions in English to save my life. I took me an HOUR to answer the first question... in the meantime I had to answer two other English questions (both needing to be a paragraph long), make a 200 word summary of the article in French and a 500 word essay in French. I only had four hours to do it.

I CANNOT BELIEVE I WENT THROUGH THAT. AND THAT WAS HELL.
I SURVIVED.

On a much happier note, I have an interview tomorrow. Yay!
But I also have my french exam... which I am not looking forward to at all.

Monday, March 28, 2011

5/100 facts

1. I am 1/8 Mauritian Créole (Black) since my dad is a quarter (+ the rest, Chinese-mauritian) and my mom is 100% Chinese-mauritian, I guess this makes me 7/8 Chinese-mauritian and 1/8 Créole. However, I didn't inherit a nice tan... Pale as snow and the odd one in the family. :(
2. I'm very anti-Blackberry, anti-Facebook, anti-Twitter, anti-eReader, anti-anything-new-technology-etc. I'd prefer a phone call over a text any given day. I'd prefer face-to-face conversation over "Facebook" wall messages ANY day. I prefer smelling a book than reading it on a tablet. I'm tired of people relying on a piece of metal and always having the need to hold on to it every freaking second. F*CK BBMS. I'm tired of people wasting their time on Facebook and turning into stalkers with the need to know everything that is going on in other people's lives. (The number one reason why I deactivated my Facebook more than a year ago.) And I was fed up with pictures of drunk parties and rolling up joints. Extremely unnecessary. I mean come on, if we didn't have Facebook would you have shown the world those pictures? Hm yeah, by wearing it around your neck like à la Flavor Flave?
3. I could go to any Starbucks, to just sit down and breathe in the scent of coffee. Delicious.
4. My grandparents are my world and my everything. I love them both to death.
5. I am trying to lose 30 pounds. And I am succeeding. I already lost 10lbs! So initially, it was 40 lbs to lose... According to my BMI, I am no longer "obese class 1" but just "overweight". Success :)

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Letters to old friends

I was going through some of my things today. I came across old cards and letters that were meant for old friends. And not a single sense of regret came flashing at me. Not even one.

Does that mean I'm over everything?
I think so. It's time to move forward.

~
Dear
x thank you for nearly six years of friendship. They were great, weren't they? Remember that camp trip? Remember the pictures? Remember the concert? Remember the talks we had? And the talks we never had? I wish we were more open with each other. I hope you're doing fine. I hope you've figured out what it is you want to do. And most importantly, I hope you're happy.
y thank you for three years of friendship. We had lots to talk about, lots to laugh about and lots to complain about. We went through a lot together. Maybe the last few months we shared weren't all that great, I am still thankful for you. I know you wanted to let me go as soon as we raced out those doors to move onto other things. It's understandable. Actually, not quite. But in a way, I get it.
a, b, c and d thank you for four years of friendship. Too bad we didn't leave it at a good note.
z thank you for those pre-high school days which I will forever cherish: the laughing about the stupidest things, the joking around (the lame jokes), the ranting, the making fun of teachers, the everything.

If you read this and think it's about you. Well, you're probably right.

Time to go.
I promise to study right after this...

What is your current obsession? Working out/losing weight (the healthy way, of course. Bottom line: staying fit and maintaing a healthy lifestyle), browsing online for shoes and clothes, watching Being Erica on Netflix, watching YouTube videos of "On n'demande qu'à en rire" because for someone reason TV5 is weeks late with the damn episodes what a piss off, DAVE FRANCO.
What is your weirdest obsession? Probably keeping up with whatever the Disney stars are doing... GUILTY!
What are you wearing today? Still in my pyjamas.
Why is today special? It's the weekend.
What would you like to learn to do? Sew.
What’s for dinner today? Ox tail with peanuts. Sounds weird but it's delicious.
What’s the last thing you bought? Maxi flowy hippie floral skirt from H&M for $9.95+tax.
What are you listening to right now? Rien. Nothing. Nada.
What is on your bedside table? I don't have one.
What is your most challenging goal right now? My program's entrance exam.
Where would you like to be? Right now? Greece or France or Italy. Or Mauritius. At the beach, in the mountains, any where my mind can rest.
Who is your favorite designer? Alexander Wang, Jeffrey Campbell, Elizabeth and James, Philip Lim, Chloé.
What would you like to have in your hands right now? A paycheque.
What would you like to get rid of? Negativity, meaning anything pertaining to it.
What are you gonna buy this week? Nothing.
If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be? Provence, France. Oh God what I would do to go there.
What did you dream of last night? I don't remember. I don't even know if I did have a dream.
What's in your bag? Cellphone, iPod, wallet, pack of tissue, tinted lipbalm.
What's your favorite colour? Seafoam/mint green, coral, turquoise, cream, black, grey, white, colours in the sea.
What is your dream job? Editor at a publishing company. Or translating books to French! Something along those lines. I want to write or have a job having to do with writing.
What are your plans for this summer? Working, reading, swimming in my pool, hopefully throw in some trips here and there with my family.
What is your favorite magazine? Nylon, anything regarding landscaping/home decor
If you could be a celebrity for one year, who would it be? Ellen Degeneres, Blake Lively, Miley Cyrus.
How do you picture yourself in ten years? Well, I'll be 29 years old by then. I'll be working, getting a career, and hopefully in love. And everything falling into its place.
Favorite item of clothing in your closet? The tribal pants from H&M that I have yet to fit in. MOTIVATED!!!

Thursday, March 24, 2011

So this just hit me. By the end of next week, I will be done 3/5 of my courses.
ALMOST THERE.
DON'T GIVE UP.

I am honestly excited for next year... Looking at the course selections got me all giddy.
Except I'm going to die because that program is so intense. As if that wasn't a warning or evident in itself, I think I might actually consider doing a Major/Minor. The two programs just seem to compliment each other. It makes sense because they do, though. And it appears to be pertinent to me... It will open up to more job opportunities. I.e. Editor which is what I really really really want to do. (This is me convincing myself that it is possible...)
YAY TATIANA!!!!! YOU OVERACHIEVER YOU!

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Drained

My level of energy right now is extremely limited.
I find myself yawning more and more as I near closer to the end of this school year.

And I'm still a little bit sick. I hate coughs.

I can imagine the moment
Breaking out through the silence
All the things that we both might say
And the heart, it will not be denied
'Til we're both on the same damn side
All the barriers blown away.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Dreams

My dream house: If not a loft in downtown Toronto. A nice house in my current neighbourhood with a big backyard so I can garden and a nice view in every room, like in our current house :) A lot of light, hardwood floors, built-in bookshelves, built-in bed, sky lights, etc.
My dream job: An éditrice for a magazine. Lou Lou? Elle Canada? FASHION magazine? Or something like that. But since I'm planning to be a translator, work for a pretty decent company, like a publishing firm. But some days, I'd rather open up a bistro/pastry shop in The Beach area. Kick back and relax.
My dream wardrobe: Black, grey (LOVE grey!), white, seafoams, corals (!!!), turquoises, navy blues, and possibly every colour in the sea.
My dream bag: Proenza Schouler PS1 extra large in blue suede, A. Wang Diego bucket bag in black, A. Wang backpack, Mulberry Alexa in black or oak, Balenciaga city bag
My dream shoes: Jeffrey Campbell Cayman sandals, Jeffrey Campbell Chaplin harness boot in black or brown. Miu Miu Sparrow heels! And anything JC.
My dream collection: jewelry. Lots of silver and gold. Rings! Chains! Bangles! Pamela Love and McQueen. Aaahh. And most probably, a big lipstick collection consisting of every shade and hue imaginable.
My dream vacation spot: Alaska. Australia. Mediterranean cruise or tour, Europe, most importantly France (again!), Italy, Austria (again!), Greece (!!!!), Spain, Belgium.
My dream life in 10 years: healthy and happy surrounded by my amazing family and amazing friends. Happily married and/or in a relationship with a lovely man. I'll be 29 years old in a decade. What.

Monday, March 21, 2011

Right now:

* Who knew "May Rush" would come back to haunt me.
If I survived 4 years, I can survive another four. (Aah good times... only now when reflecting upon it. But to live it again? Ja'right.)
* What would have been a lonely bus ride to class turned into an unexpected encounter with someone.
* Spring, get rid of your wind and grey skies. Let's see the sun and clear blue skies. Please. But birds, keep on chirping. I've missed ya.
* Yay for all-white outfits! White jeans, white sneakers, white tee. Only to make my already pale complexion stand out even MORE. Hahaha.
* I forgot how much I loathed taking the bus with other high school kids on. Not fun. At all.
* KID, next time say something. I don't bite ya know.
* I have so much shit to do. To study. To read. To write. I have yet to apply for my program for next year. WHY wasn't I informed that we could have taken that stupid "entrance exam" throughout the entire year.
Let's finish first year, please.

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Dysfunctionality at its best, ladies and gentlemen.
Putting on a façade is what you all are best at. Pathetic and rather unfortunate.
Your mannerisms and ours are simply incompatible.
I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT THE HELL COULD POSSIBLY BE GOING ON IN YOUR HEADS.

I just can't even...

Forget you, you and you and you and you and you and you all.

Friday, March 18, 2011

ABOUT ME SURVEY

Name: Tatiana Marie Véronique [insert three Chinese surnames here]. I have a long last name that consists of three different names. Yeah. As if one wasn't enough.

Birthday: May 26th, 1992

Birthplace: The beautiful and sunny island of Mauritius.

Current Location: Toronto, ON

Eye Colour: Muddy brown with a mix of muddy green. I don't even know.

Hair Colour: Dark brown with no light. And brown with sunlight.

Height: 5'6"

Left Handed or Right handed: Lefty! I can, however, cut with my right hand :)

Your Heritage: Mauritian (of Chinese descent and 1/8 Créole/Black - Yeah, I got some African in me! :D )

Your Best Physical Feature: I like my lips. Full enough but no gigantic. Great for lipstick, ya know.

Your Fears: They are the typical - being a letdown and a disappointment. Failing. And losing any one in my family. Being let down by someone else. Someone giving up on me. Let's be honest, it's happened before and I'm so fucking tired of that bullshit.

Are you Confident: I used to be extremely socially awkward. And now I think I've changed. It must be the fact that I am growing older or I got over the phase of the whole reserve introvert facade. So yes, I would say I am confident.

Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Finish my first year with a decent GPA so I can get a decent scholarship. AND be accepted into the Translation program. And of course, be hired this summer. PLEASE! :)

Your Most Overused Phrase: WHAAT?! NO! (Yeah... that's pretty much what I say..)

What or Who Makes Life Worth Living: The people I live with. My family. Especially my grandparents. I love them.

Do you Think you are Smart: Yes.

What grade are you in: First year university. Almost done! I CAN'T WAIT.

Have you ever been Suspended: Naaw.

Do you have any Pets: A dirty white and dark gray Holland Lop named Bunbun. She's a cutie.

What’s your relationship status: Single.

Favorite Store: H&M, UO, Zara

Favorite Food: Greek, italian

Favorite Rapper/Singer: Singer, I'd say Justin Vernon.

Favorite Movies: I just watched Whip It recently. And loved it!!!

Favorite Color: Mint (the seafoam green)

Favorite Drink: Water, tea and Taro bubble tea.

Favorite Word(s): Pier, boots... Haha.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

YOU'VE GOT THE STYLE

Couple of things:
* Athlete - must sync some of it back into my iPod. I miss them!
* You are too freaking attractive beyond words and comprehension. I'm not even making any sense. Um, will you be there next year? I hope so. Hahaha oh dear.
* PRINTEMPS! SPRING! HELLO, I SEE YOU!!! :)
* Tuesday and wednesday bus rides = the funniest.

NTS

Weigh in yesterday and I officially lost a total of 10 lbs!!!!!!!!! Yee' son.
Onto the next 30. Let's do this.
And by July-ish I'll have a new body. Aww yeah.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

WHOEVER WAS DISTURBING ME WITH USELESS PHONE CALLS

in other words, prank calling.
FUCK YOU.

I'm trying to write a paper due thursday in peace and quiet while no one is even at home.
I don't give a fuck if you were indeed family "being funny". Little fuckers.
Some people have shit to do.

MAYBE, that's a slight maybe, if I were in a different situation, I'd take this lightly.

Monday, March 14, 2011

What am I most looking forward to:

a) Finishing my first year, b) Spring - blooming flowers, sunshine (and some rain), light jackets, colour, showing off my new bod. c) Working! Earning $$$. Someone hire me already, d) Days by the pool and in the pool.

But first, I must get my ass to work! I finished my intro paragraph for my problématique. Awwww yee'.
Presentation and 1 research paper DONE!
Remaining to-do: 1 philo paper, 1 problématique argumentative paper, 1 psychology research paper, 1 NATS test, 1 psych exam, 1 FRAN test, 1 FINAL FRAN exam.

Still so much shit to do.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

BACK TO OUR ROOTS

The order I perceive and represent myself: 1) Mauritian, 2) Chinese descent, 3) Canadian.

Yesterday was pretty fun. But just like during any freaking event, I want to shove that microphone up the MC's ass. Really, whyyyy him? POURQUOI?!?!?!

Happy Independence Mauritius!
I miss you. I love you. You're always in my heart.
I'll never forget my childhood there.
We were together for 10 years but it feels like a lifetime. And now going onto our ninth year being apart, you're still a part of me.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Il ne me reste qu'un seul mois. Et hop! C'est fini!!!!

Next week: Monday presentation + research paper, Thursday test + paper.
End of March: 2 final tests.
April: 2 papers, 1 exam.

ALLONS-Y!

And so it is just like you said it would be

I can't take my mind off you
'Til I find somebody new.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Can I just say though, that you are the epitome of attractive.
Caramel skin, amazing cheekbones, beautiful ringlets, little but enough muscle to satisfy a girl, swagger walk.
Um and the fitted pants, pink sweater (which complimented all the right places of your upper body, just sayin') and the boat shoes combination made me stare in amazement.

Alright /end creepiness here.

Monday, March 7, 2011

Hearing these conversations, it's like I'm back in high school again. What the hell?
You'd think guys would grow wiser by then... Hahahahahahahahaha that's funny.

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Laughter Yoga today:
3) Inner child, 2) Laughing for no particular reason. Laughing for laughing's sake, 1) Tired, relaxed, balance, overall great experience.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

~ Another inch off the waist. 2 inches! I reached my goal. Now onto the next 2.
~ Skipping morning class today because of the OSAP presentations @ 3-4pm. If I didn't have night class then I would've gone to philo. I'm not freaking staying at school for 11 hours straight, with 2-3 hours intervals. HA. No.

Monday, February 28, 2011

123 STOP

+ Falling asleep in afternoon class. Um, it's a first. Usually morning class is freaking tiring/boring, altogether useless.
+ Being able to catch at least the opening of the Oscars last night. FRANCO! :)
+ Watching and rewatching the Kev Adams "FANTA" video. NON-STOP. And share it with everyone in my family and laugh so hard until I nearly die each and every time. Hahaha.

NOW: Waiting to head home. Only 25 mins left. My back hurts. My left hand still hurts. Freaking hell. That's my writing hand too.

Saturday, February 26, 2011

DIE & SUCCEED

~ Interview II, done. I'm feeling good about this one. All the way in freaking Etobicoke. Yay for parents who love their children! (i.e. mine) Drop-off/pick-up.
~ Spicy Dragon on Friday
~ IKEA frozen yogurt on Saturday. Delicious.
~ Kev Adams vids on YouTube. Hahah
~ 5lbs lost! 1 inch off! I'm so freaking excited. Beyond proud of myself. Summer bod, here I come.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

RING OUT

I stared in wordlessness.
I just kept noticing your mouth,
and how your face just fit.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

PICK-ME-UPS

1. TV5 "On n'demande qu'à en rire" Mondays to Fridays @ 1PM. I come home from class, just in time for this show. Well with the exception of Mondays. Getting my munch on and laugh on at the same time. Not all the time... some of these people really do suck. Haha. Favourites: Kev Adams, Les Lascars Gays, Olivier de Benoist.
2. 1 girl 5 days. LOVE LOVE LOVE! :) Favourites: David, Dean, Philippe, Juan, Yerxa.
3. Ray LaMontagne. Any of his records. Favourite songs (of many): Burn, Forever My Friend, Let it be me, Jolene, Trouble, Crazy (Gnarls Barkley cover). Blast his record and any day is a good one. Honestly. Literally lifts up your spirit in an instant. :)
4. Justin Vernon (Bon Iver, Deyarmond Edison, J.D. Vernon, himself). His projects are freaking amazing. Every song. Favourites: Breathe, Skinny love, Blindsided, May 27th 1999, Creature Fear.
5. Watching outdated movies that remind me of my childhood. I watched the Lizzie McGuire Movie yesterday. Hahaha, I love that movie. And then we watched My Girl on friday night.

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Nights like these

Lights dimmed low, Ivory's "Goodnight Goodbye" playing in the background, lying in bed and conversations on/about various topics.

Monday, February 14, 2011

MORE THINGS

- Reading week NOW. Because then I know that I'd be done my philo paper. And I could work freely on my NATS essay and presentation.
- Purchased a camel down toggle jacket for $19.99 + tax. FREAKIN' STEAL!
- Want Spring to come, now. I'm tired of snow. Shoveling. Walking in it. And shit.
- I need a pick-me-up. 1 girl 5 gays? On ne m'demande qu'à en rire? Yeah, whenever I can spare the time : ( which at the moment is quite minimal.
- Need to dye my hair. Again, when I can spare 20+ minutes.
- I need to finish knitting shit. Hahah. I'm infamous for starting to knit something and not finishing it.......
- I need mind sleep.
The interview went well, I think.
I passed the first part of the presentation.
And I think I aced the standard interview process by answering with logical responses, being clear and rational.

Full-time job in the summer would be a dream come true. Haha, that sounds pathetic but honestly, I'd rather be doing something than nothing. And why not make MONEY.
40 hours.

~
Dear guy with the nice fitting pants and beautiful ringlets and jaw structure and overall swagger,
Um, you are definitely, without a doubt, incredibly attractive.
Let's be friends?

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

THINGS

- A random guy in the hall said good morning to me. Haha, amazing. I swear no one pays attention to you on campus. THANK YOU :)
- Chitchats and laughs and complaints about the 11 being late and bus rides avec Chloé.
- Unexpected guest! Matthieu, the alcoholic, southern, stupid american. Haha. MADE MY DAY.
- I ALMOST lost my favourite beanie. Thank goodness I realized that it was missing.
- Interview this Saturday. Soon to be a summer working money $ maker.
- Deleting old e-mails from old friends. As in, the ones I no longer talk to. No longer.

Test tomorrow, paper and presentation on Monday, paper next Thursday.
Guess who's got a date with the reference library on Friday? YEEE YOU'RE LOOKING AT HER.

Monday, February 7, 2011

I am drowning in assignments.
I am beyond worried for my nutrition course. How can I honestly be doing so bad? I hope my mark goes up with the help of my paper and presentation and work sheets.
I applied to four different summer jobs. I am aiming for TZ and TBJ. Both are "outdoors". HOWEVER, pay for one of them is sooo much better.
I WILL GET THAT ONE. I HAVE TO. I WILL.

Friday, February 4, 2011

AT THE MOMENT

* Lady pains are being a real bitch. I woke up pain in distinctive areas of my body. MY KNEES, MY UTERUS!! Hahaha. Seriously, it hurts.
* On top of that, I have an argumentative paper to write due Sunday @ 18h.
* PLUS a four chapter test. Mind you it would have been FIVE if we didn't complain to her. She's insane, in the worst way possible.
* But, my cousin's 2-year-old daughter is around for the weekend. She's the cutest! And a great distraction :)

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Thank you

Today I received a little package in the mail from my childhood best friend, who now resides in France. We haven't see each other, in person, in more than 8 years (since I left Mauritius). We reconnected, through the power of Facebook, about three years ago. I suppose I should be thankful for Facebook, but I am such a hater when it comes to that subject... Anyway.
I wrote to her for Christmas. I sent her something accompanied by a card and little writings of everything we shared during our childhood.
She wrote me back with kind words, just as kind as she is. When someone goes out of their way, sacrifices a certain amount of time for me, it makes me happy. She reminded me of how we met in elementary school. We went to the same pre-school but then found each other a few years later. I was sitting on the bench, quiet as usual but calm, and she was crying because she missed her mom. She approached me and asked me if we could be friends. We instantly became attached at the hip. Funny how a simple question could later blossom into something much bigger.

Thank you Emily. You are one of the rarest, most genuine, honest and kind-hearted people I have ever met in my eighteen years of living. Thank you for your kind words about me. Thank you :)
I hope that one of these days, we'll reunite in person.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Philosophie class today: priceless.
Sparks of knowledge, new discovery and overall "WTF?!"s.

Monday, January 31, 2011

LEAVE IT ALONE

Let's lock arms and shout to the sun:
look what we have done.


As per usual, mondays are long. My mind is falling asleep; I am tired. I am surrounded by chaos, noise: students talking amongst themselves, loudly. And it's just me fighting against noise and music and readings.

It's me and Justin Vernon against the world at the moment :)

FUN FACT!

NO ONE, I mean NO BODY, suspects me of being freaking Mauritian on Campus. WHAT THE HEEEELLLLLL, GUY!
Aren't my roots evident? OR what?
This is so sad... Cry cry cry.

Saturday, January 29, 2011

The main level of our house smells so delicious right now. Oatmeal cookies and banana cake.
(:

Thursday, January 27, 2011

GOOD NEWS FOR PEOPLE WHO LOVE BAD NEWS

Satisfied with my mark for the first assignment :)

Tomorrow's plan:
- Breakfast
- Intense Workout
- Lunch
- Trip to the Salvation Army Thrift Store for the dollar sale!!!
- NATS homework
- Bake oatmeal white chocolate chip cookies.

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Intense workout session: Zumba (40 mins cardio), six exercise workout, 3-tier squats, wrist weights.
Now: Waiting for my homemade granola to finish baking. Smells soooo good! Coconut and nuts and maple syrup! :)

Monday, January 24, 2011

LOVE LIKE A SUNSET

J'ADORE PHOENIX! :)

Obsessed with Napoleon Says just because it's filled with hilarity.

AND:
i.
RAFI GAVRON
Incredibly good looking.
ii. Besides being really really really bored and annoyed and overall moody in the afternoon due to the fact that I had to wait two hours and fifteen minutes until home, my last class was great. Loved the replacement prof!! He was too funny. And eff the people who didn't laugh!! YOU GUYS HAVE NO SENSE OF HUMOUR! Hell, maybe I just love to laugh..... but still. He was funny. I'm taking his african whatever class next year. Hahaha
Two hours of waiting in the student lounge. Fucking hell it's loud and exhausting. Eff you Mondays, I hatechu.

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Change of plans

- Summer job: T.O. Zoo, Centreville or The Ex - basically somewhere you can interact with people and enjoy summer.
- MUST GO: Marineland, mini trips to the States.
- G1 permit (I know, this is laughable. I'm 18......)

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

TRUTH

Someday all this mess will make me laugh.
I can't wait, I can't wait, I can't wait...

If I ever feel better,
Remind me to spend some good time with you.
You can give me your number,
When it's all over I'll let you know.

It's like somebody took my place;
I ain't even playing my own game.
The rules have changed well I didn't know.
There are things in my life I can't control.

- Phoenix.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Foreign films

are the absolute best.

Favourites as of late: L'heure d'été, Victor and Earth.

The perks of living near a Blockbuster and having a Favourite movie pass. The people who work there will recognize me as a familiar face. Haha. The walk to and from is good exercise. My maman and I walked through the snow storm yesterday, just for a movie. Hahah.

On another note: Juliette Binoche est très belle.

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Feels like home

Homemade soup and movies: a great remedy for snow storms.

Friday, January 14, 2011

The passengers

He was sitting at the back of the bus, his eyes intently drowning in a book.

She sat down, across from him. Her back facing the side windows. At first, he hadn't noticed anything until he looked up to check the roads. There she was; sitting and daydreaming. Her skin was kissed by the cold dry winter air. And her cheeks were cherry red.

They both rode the bus in silence, each in their own world.

Before he got off at his stop, he took one last glance at her and he disappeared.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

in the next six months

- make more.......
- meet someone great
- an overall B+ average
- get accepted into the translation program
- hop on a plane and just go.
- be continuously happy with myself, with my life, with everything.

Monday, January 10, 2011

It's nice when someone you know comes and unexpectedly says "Hello" before class starts because you were sitting and waiting alone and they just coincidentally arrived, alone, and in a sense, we both needed someone to literally talk to in that moment.
And by talk, yes I do mean literally have one-to-one conversations but every question is genuine and every answer is honest.

Thank you, thank you, thank you.
To the guy on the west end of the room, stop staring at the girl on the east side of the room. That's just plain creepy. Every freaking Monday morning class.

Dude, put on your big boy boxers and go talk to her. I don't know if she notices but I fucking do. And frankly, I find that to be rather disconcerting.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

What's new (this year):

- I've been wearing crimson lipstick practically everyday without feeling uncomfortable. I quite like my lips being that shade of red.
- I've been caring less and less about my hair. I don't want to cut it although it might desperately need a trim. I've been parting it in the middle for awhile now and I like it. I dyed it this supposedly purple brown colour but that was a bust. However, I did notice a change in colour; it's dark brown now and in the light, rather light brown. I don't know how... but whatever. I think I like it.
Somedays I'm just too lazy to bother wash it when it'll be covered anyway. I am always so tempted to just put it up in a bun and throw a beanie on. I don't care if I look like a freaking rastaman.
- I've been wearing my UGGS practically everyday. And you could say that there's a little bit of self-loathing whenever I wear them... So I ordered a pair of black Sorel's. (Finally.)
- HIPHOP ABS workout sessions almost everyday. Bought a weight scale, at LAST. And shovelling has also contributed to my daly workout.

Saturday, January 8, 2011

Saturday lunch

Lunch, chitchats and laughter with the family in the kitchen. Papa and I eating at the countertop quite uncomfortably while Maman and Stephanie eat at the table.
We are honestly a really close family because we know that at the end of the day, we only have each other.
We are aware of each other's faults and imperfections as well as our (good) mannerisms. As a family should love unconditionally, we accept these qualities.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

!

The new year, in terms of school work, has started out amazing. I received a B for that French course! Since I passed, I'm able to move on to the continual course. I passed my first university course! :) Haha

And the usually lonely and boring wednesday bus ride turned to unexpected chitchats and laughter with Chloé.
We've replaced the thursday rides with wednesday due to class changes, etc.
Two doses of Chloé in two consecutive days. Hollaaa. Haha.

Saturday, January 1, 2011

New Year's

Bottle of Heineken and some banana cake and good company.

xo

2010 in bullets

- Lost touch with a few people
- Realized that the only people you can definitely rely on, for life, are your family and ultimately yourself
- Bonds with childhood friends are stronger than any other friendships
- Realized that friends who are miles away or a continent away make the time to stay in touch.
- New beginnings are the best
- Dyed my hair three shades lighter, meaning brown
- Then dyed it blueberry black months later and as per usual, the colour faded within a couple shampoos. Note to self: DON'T DO IT AGAIN.
- Suddenly found an admiration for rabbits like people have for dogs. It started out with Youtube videos. And then finally caved in and we bought a holland lop rabbit named Bunbun, She's three years old, almost four and she's cute and fat and furry. I was never an animal person. I had a dog when I was little but that was it. I didn't clean after it. But with this rabbit, it's like an episode of Dirty Jobs from Animal Planet. Cleaning her litter box and her cage and brushing her fur and taking her out to play and walking her and feeding her.
- Couldn't wait to get the fuck out of high school. HONESTLY.
- Graduated high school and promised myself that I wouldn't go back there again. (Sounds awful right? It's not like I hated my high school, I don't know why. I'm the kind of person that likes to move on to other things. But if my T.A. was still there, I would have definitely visited.)
- Became more outgoing in terms of speaking to other people. Perhaps even a little less socially awkward.
- Began a year in university and for the first time in 8 years, started a curriculum in French. I missed talking French every single day. Now I have the chance to do that. And not only speak it but being surrounded by it is amazing. Hearing French. Seeing French. Writing French. Reading French.
- Realized that my back-up plan was impossible. I ended up choosing translation over teaching. It might be a boring job, but I wouldn't be able to handle children in herds.
- Realized that my dream job: working for an editing house. Perhaps translating books to French? Or editing French pieces.
- Remained single yet again.
- Had the best summer of my entire 18 years of living.
- Had my first summer in our new house.
- I was chlorine infested. My pores were releasing chlorine. My hair was filthy chlorine and basically lived in my pool everyday during the summer.
- Finally received my Macbook.
- Met great people in university.
- Had the best Christmas ever. And Christmas break.
- Fell in love with philosophy yet again.

And the first thing I plan to do in 2011? Attempt to dye my hair tips an auburn brown, ombre-style according to Shenae Grimes pictures when she had darker hair.
It's a tradition. I dye my hair for every New Year.

A toast to

more memorable moments, love, peace, more encounters with great people, better solid friendships, intense real conversations, more laughter, more smiles, more success, more prosperity.

Above all, here's a toast to an even amazing year.

2011, bring it on.