Wednesday, March 30, 2011

PUTAIN DE MERDE!!!

Four hours later, I am done the entrance exam for my program. MY EYES ARE BURNING!!!!! Too long... staring at a computer screen......

For the record, I am incapable of responding rapidly to any comprehension questions in English to save my life. I took me an HOUR to answer the first question... in the meantime I had to answer two other English questions (both needing to be a paragraph long), make a 200 word summary of the article in French and a 500 word essay in French. I only had four hours to do it.

I CANNOT BELIEVE I WENT THROUGH THAT. AND THAT WAS HELL.
I SURVIVED.

On a much happier note, I have an interview tomorrow. Yay!
But I also have my french exam... which I am not looking forward to at all.

Monday, March 28, 2011

5/100 facts

1. I am 1/8 Mauritian Créole (Black) since my dad is a quarter (+ the rest, Chinese-mauritian) and my mom is 100% Chinese-mauritian, I guess this makes me 7/8 Chinese-mauritian and 1/8 Créole. However, I didn't inherit a nice tan... Pale as snow and the odd one in the family. :(
2. I'm very anti-Blackberry, anti-Facebook, anti-Twitter, anti-eReader, anti-anything-new-technology-etc. I'd prefer a phone call over a text any given day. I'd prefer face-to-face conversation over "Facebook" wall messages ANY day. I prefer smelling a book than reading it on a tablet. I'm tired of people relying on a piece of metal and always having the need to hold on to it every freaking second. F*CK BBMS. I'm tired of people wasting their time on Facebook and turning into stalkers with the need to know everything that is going on in other people's lives. (The number one reason why I deactivated my Facebook more than a year ago.) And I was fed up with pictures of drunk parties and rolling up joints. Extremely unnecessary. I mean come on, if we didn't have Facebook would you have shown the world those pictures? Hm yeah, by wearing it around your neck like à la Flavor Flave?
3. I could go to any Starbucks, to just sit down and breathe in the scent of coffee. Delicious.
4. My grandparents are my world and my everything. I love them both to death.
5. I am trying to lose 30 pounds. And I am succeeding. I already lost 10lbs! So initially, it was 40 lbs to lose... According to my BMI, I am no longer "obese class 1" but just "overweight". Success :)

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Letters to old friends

I was going through some of my things today. I came across old cards and letters that were meant for old friends. And not a single sense of regret came flashing at me. Not even one.

Does that mean I'm over everything?
I think so. It's time to move forward.

~
Dear
x thank you for nearly six years of friendship. They were great, weren't they? Remember that camp trip? Remember the pictures? Remember the concert? Remember the talks we had? And the talks we never had? I wish we were more open with each other. I hope you're doing fine. I hope you've figured out what it is you want to do. And most importantly, I hope you're happy.
y thank you for three years of friendship. We had lots to talk about, lots to laugh about and lots to complain about. We went through a lot together. Maybe the last few months we shared weren't all that great, I am still thankful for you. I know you wanted to let me go as soon as we raced out those doors to move onto other things. It's understandable. Actually, not quite. But in a way, I get it.
a, b, c and d thank you for four years of friendship. Too bad we didn't leave it at a good note.
z thank you for those pre-high school days which I will forever cherish: the laughing about the stupidest things, the joking around (the lame jokes), the ranting, the making fun of teachers, the everything.

If you read this and think it's about you. Well, you're probably right.

Time to go.
I promise to study right after this...

What is your current obsession? Working out/losing weight (the healthy way, of course. Bottom line: staying fit and maintaing a healthy lifestyle), browsing online for shoes and clothes, watching Being Erica on Netflix, watching YouTube videos of "On n'demande qu'à en rire" because for someone reason TV5 is weeks late with the damn episodes what a piss off, DAVE FRANCO.
What is your weirdest obsession? Probably keeping up with whatever the Disney stars are doing... GUILTY!
What are you wearing today? Still in my pyjamas.
Why is today special? It's the weekend.
What would you like to learn to do? Sew.
What’s for dinner today? Ox tail with peanuts. Sounds weird but it's delicious.
What’s the last thing you bought? Maxi flowy hippie floral skirt from H&M for $9.95+tax.
What are you listening to right now? Rien. Nothing. Nada.
What is on your bedside table? I don't have one.
What is your most challenging goal right now? My program's entrance exam.
Where would you like to be? Right now? Greece or France or Italy. Or Mauritius. At the beach, in the mountains, any where my mind can rest.
Who is your favorite designer? Alexander Wang, Jeffrey Campbell, Elizabeth and James, Philip Lim, Chloé.
What would you like to have in your hands right now? A paycheque.
What would you like to get rid of? Negativity, meaning anything pertaining to it.
What are you gonna buy this week? Nothing.
If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be? Provence, France. Oh God what I would do to go there.
What did you dream of last night? I don't remember. I don't even know if I did have a dream.
What's in your bag? Cellphone, iPod, wallet, pack of tissue, tinted lipbalm.
What's your favorite colour? Seafoam/mint green, coral, turquoise, cream, black, grey, white, colours in the sea.
What is your dream job? Editor at a publishing company. Or translating books to French! Something along those lines. I want to write or have a job having to do with writing.
What are your plans for this summer? Working, reading, swimming in my pool, hopefully throw in some trips here and there with my family.
What is your favorite magazine? Nylon, anything regarding landscaping/home decor
If you could be a celebrity for one year, who would it be? Ellen Degeneres, Blake Lively, Miley Cyrus.
How do you picture yourself in ten years? Well, I'll be 29 years old by then. I'll be working, getting a career, and hopefully in love. And everything falling into its place.
Favorite item of clothing in your closet? The tribal pants from H&M that I have yet to fit in. MOTIVATED!!!

Thursday, March 24, 2011

So this just hit me. By the end of next week, I will be done 3/5 of my courses.
ALMOST THERE.
DON'T GIVE UP.

I am honestly excited for next year... Looking at the course selections got me all giddy.
Except I'm going to die because that program is so intense. As if that wasn't a warning or evident in itself, I think I might actually consider doing a Major/Minor. The two programs just seem to compliment each other. It makes sense because they do, though. And it appears to be pertinent to me... It will open up to more job opportunities. I.e. Editor which is what I really really really want to do. (This is me convincing myself that it is possible...)
YAY TATIANA!!!!! YOU OVERACHIEVER YOU!

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Drained

My level of energy right now is extremely limited.
I find myself yawning more and more as I near closer to the end of this school year.

And I'm still a little bit sick. I hate coughs.

I can imagine the moment
Breaking out through the silence
All the things that we both might say
And the heart, it will not be denied
'Til we're both on the same damn side
All the barriers blown away.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Dreams

My dream house: If not a loft in downtown Toronto. A nice house in my current neighbourhood with a big backyard so I can garden and a nice view in every room, like in our current house :) A lot of light, hardwood floors, built-in bookshelves, built-in bed, sky lights, etc.
My dream job: An éditrice for a magazine. Lou Lou? Elle Canada? FASHION magazine? Or something like that. But since I'm planning to be a translator, work for a pretty decent company, like a publishing firm. But some days, I'd rather open up a bistro/pastry shop in The Beach area. Kick back and relax.
My dream wardrobe: Black, grey (LOVE grey!), white, seafoams, corals (!!!), turquoises, navy blues, and possibly every colour in the sea.
My dream bag: Proenza Schouler PS1 extra large in blue suede, A. Wang Diego bucket bag in black, A. Wang backpack, Mulberry Alexa in black or oak, Balenciaga city bag
My dream shoes: Jeffrey Campbell Cayman sandals, Jeffrey Campbell Chaplin harness boot in black or brown. Miu Miu Sparrow heels! And anything JC.
My dream collection: jewelry. Lots of silver and gold. Rings! Chains! Bangles! Pamela Love and McQueen. Aaahh. And most probably, a big lipstick collection consisting of every shade and hue imaginable.
My dream vacation spot: Alaska. Australia. Mediterranean cruise or tour, Europe, most importantly France (again!), Italy, Austria (again!), Greece (!!!!), Spain, Belgium.
My dream life in 10 years: healthy and happy surrounded by my amazing family and amazing friends. Happily married and/or in a relationship with a lovely man. I'll be 29 years old in a decade. What.

Monday, March 21, 2011

Right now:

* Who knew "May Rush" would come back to haunt me.
If I survived 4 years, I can survive another four. (Aah good times... only now when reflecting upon it. But to live it again? Ja'right.)
* What would have been a lonely bus ride to class turned into an unexpected encounter with someone.
* Spring, get rid of your wind and grey skies. Let's see the sun and clear blue skies. Please. But birds, keep on chirping. I've missed ya.
* Yay for all-white outfits! White jeans, white sneakers, white tee. Only to make my already pale complexion stand out even MORE. Hahaha.
* I forgot how much I loathed taking the bus with other high school kids on. Not fun. At all.
* KID, next time say something. I don't bite ya know.
* I have so much shit to do. To study. To read. To write. I have yet to apply for my program for next year. WHY wasn't I informed that we could have taken that stupid "entrance exam" throughout the entire year.
Let's finish first year, please.

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Dysfunctionality at its best, ladies and gentlemen.
Putting on a façade is what you all are best at. Pathetic and rather unfortunate.
Your mannerisms and ours are simply incompatible.
I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT THE HELL COULD POSSIBLY BE GOING ON IN YOUR HEADS.

I just can't even...

Forget you, you and you and you and you and you and you all.

Friday, March 18, 2011

ABOUT ME SURVEY

Name: Tatiana Marie Véronique [insert three Chinese surnames here]. I have a long last name that consists of three different names. Yeah. As if one wasn't enough.

Birthday: May 26th, 1992

Birthplace: The beautiful and sunny island of Mauritius.

Current Location: Toronto, ON

Eye Colour: Muddy brown with a mix of muddy green. I don't even know.

Hair Colour: Dark brown with no light. And brown with sunlight.

Height: 5'6"

Left Handed or Right handed: Lefty! I can, however, cut with my right hand :)

Your Heritage: Mauritian (of Chinese descent and 1/8 Créole/Black - Yeah, I got some African in me! :D )

Your Best Physical Feature: I like my lips. Full enough but no gigantic. Great for lipstick, ya know.

Your Fears: They are the typical - being a letdown and a disappointment. Failing. And losing any one in my family. Being let down by someone else. Someone giving up on me. Let's be honest, it's happened before and I'm so fucking tired of that bullshit.

Are you Confident: I used to be extremely socially awkward. And now I think I've changed. It must be the fact that I am growing older or I got over the phase of the whole reserve introvert facade. So yes, I would say I am confident.

Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Finish my first year with a decent GPA so I can get a decent scholarship. AND be accepted into the Translation program. And of course, be hired this summer. PLEASE! :)

Your Most Overused Phrase: WHAAT?! NO! (Yeah... that's pretty much what I say..)

What or Who Makes Life Worth Living: The people I live with. My family. Especially my grandparents. I love them.

Do you Think you are Smart: Yes.

What grade are you in: First year university. Almost done! I CAN'T WAIT.

Have you ever been Suspended: Naaw.

Do you have any Pets: A dirty white and dark gray Holland Lop named Bunbun. She's a cutie.

What’s your relationship status: Single.

Favorite Store: H&M, UO, Zara

Favorite Food: Greek, italian

Favorite Rapper/Singer: Singer, I'd say Justin Vernon.

Favorite Movies: I just watched Whip It recently. And loved it!!!

Favorite Color: Mint (the seafoam green)

Favorite Drink: Water, tea and Taro bubble tea.

Favorite Word(s): Pier, boots... Haha.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

YOU'VE GOT THE STYLE

Couple of things:
* Athlete - must sync some of it back into my iPod. I miss them!
* You are too freaking attractive beyond words and comprehension. I'm not even making any sense. Um, will you be there next year? I hope so. Hahaha oh dear.
* PRINTEMPS! SPRING! HELLO, I SEE YOU!!! :)
* Tuesday and wednesday bus rides = the funniest.

NTS

Weigh in yesterday and I officially lost a total of 10 lbs!!!!!!!!! Yee' son.
Onto the next 30. Let's do this.
And by July-ish I'll have a new body. Aww yeah.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

WHOEVER WAS DISTURBING ME WITH USELESS PHONE CALLS

in other words, prank calling.
FUCK YOU.

I'm trying to write a paper due thursday in peace and quiet while no one is even at home.
I don't give a fuck if you were indeed family "being funny". Little fuckers.
Some people have shit to do.

MAYBE, that's a slight maybe, if I were in a different situation, I'd take this lightly.

Monday, March 14, 2011

What am I most looking forward to:

a) Finishing my first year, b) Spring - blooming flowers, sunshine (and some rain), light jackets, colour, showing off my new bod. c) Working! Earning $$$. Someone hire me already, d) Days by the pool and in the pool.

But first, I must get my ass to work! I finished my intro paragraph for my problématique. Awwww yee'.
Presentation and 1 research paper DONE!
Remaining to-do: 1 philo paper, 1 problématique argumentative paper, 1 psychology research paper, 1 NATS test, 1 psych exam, 1 FRAN test, 1 FINAL FRAN exam.

Still so much shit to do.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

BACK TO OUR ROOTS

The order I perceive and represent myself: 1) Mauritian, 2) Chinese descent, 3) Canadian.

Yesterday was pretty fun. But just like during any freaking event, I want to shove that microphone up the MC's ass. Really, whyyyy him? POURQUOI?!?!?!

Happy Independence Mauritius!
I miss you. I love you. You're always in my heart.
I'll never forget my childhood there.
We were together for 10 years but it feels like a lifetime. And now going onto our ninth year being apart, you're still a part of me.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Il ne me reste qu'un seul mois. Et hop! C'est fini!!!!

Next week: Monday presentation + research paper, Thursday test + paper.
End of March: 2 final tests.
April: 2 papers, 1 exam.

ALLONS-Y!

And so it is just like you said it would be

I can't take my mind off you
'Til I find somebody new.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Can I just say though, that you are the epitome of attractive.
Caramel skin, amazing cheekbones, beautiful ringlets, little but enough muscle to satisfy a girl, swagger walk.
Um and the fitted pants, pink sweater (which complimented all the right places of your upper body, just sayin') and the boat shoes combination made me stare in amazement.

Alright /end creepiness here.

Monday, March 7, 2011

Hearing these conversations, it's like I'm back in high school again. What the hell?
You'd think guys would grow wiser by then... Hahahahahahahahaha that's funny.

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Laughter Yoga today:
3) Inner child, 2) Laughing for no particular reason. Laughing for laughing's sake, 1) Tired, relaxed, balance, overall great experience.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

~ Another inch off the waist. 2 inches! I reached my goal. Now onto the next 2.
~ Skipping morning class today because of the OSAP presentations @ 3-4pm. If I didn't have night class then I would've gone to philo. I'm not freaking staying at school for 11 hours straight, with 2-3 hours intervals. HA. No.