Saturday, July 31, 2010

day 9 - my beliefs

I wouldn't call myself religious or a strong believer for that matter. For years I considered myself a "Catholic" because I was born a "Catholic" and participated/received in some sacraments. But after having analyzed, witnessed and made discoveries about certain things, I don't quite know what I consider myself now. I am still figuring it out. Though I don't think that it is a necessity to label myself in that department. I dislike labels, especially when it comes to religion like how some churches call themselves "Chinese (insert Christian religion here) church" or "Armenian (insert Christian religion here) church", are you fucking kidding me? Is that really needed? If we share the same religion, if we believe in the same things then the purpose of separation and segregating believers according to race or culture is completely contradictory.

I still go to mass. I try to avoid it when I can. I go to mass because of my parents. I don't understand why we go now because we never went when I was a kid. When we immigrated here eight years ago, we suddenly started. So I go. I have to or my Dad will go ape shit or bat shit, some kind of -shit on me.

One thing's for sure, I am not atheist. I definitely believe in God, a higher power/being that is a protector and a spiritual guide. I like Buddhist philosophies and principles. So my beliefs are a combination of both Christian Catholic and Buddhist beliefs, and sometimes existentialist philosophies, such as the likes of Jean-Paul Sartre. He might be cynical but that's what I love about him.

I tried to form a list of what I do and do not believe in. Here it goes:
i. God & Christ - like I said, I believe in a God. A higher power/being, that is omnipresent, omnipotent, and omniscient. He's forgiving, understand and accepting of all our perfections and imperfections.
ii. Heaven and Hell - both on Earth and above. Sort of like reincarnation, etc.
iii. Reincarnation - multiple lives/deja vu.
iv. Miracles
v. Karma - 'cause well, she's a big bitch.

That's about it... but to those non-believing big-ass-cross/rosary-wearing sonuvva bitches, FUCK YOU. You don't even believe in Christ, you're not even fucking Christian. Take that shit off. You don't have a legitimate reason to be wearing it.

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